too HOT for me...

can someone give me some cold water? i need to cool down... hurry, please... ahak ugghhh, so hot... quickly hand me some cold water... errggghhh, so hot, i cant take it anymore... too HOT for me!! urrgghhh, hot hot hot... that blue or maybe green or is it grey eyes? im dying over here... help!! LOL!! i think im gonna faint... LOL!! tell me, is he really that HOT or is it just me? too hot for me anyway... hahahaha!!

here's the HOT stuff... well, he's hot and of coz out of the single market... i present the HOT stuff, Jonathan Rhys Meyers!!

August

have you ever...

i have one song that i really love and been listening to it for so many years and never will get bored... i really love the lyric, so beautiful, so meaningful, so truthful. i can listen to it all day long, close my eyes and all the memories will start flashing in my mind, the good, sad and happy memories, everything that have taken place in my life... reminds me of all the things i've done for someone that i really love, things that i never regret and things that i wish never had happened...

brandy - have you ever

have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night
have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
have you ever, have you ever

have you ever been in love

been in love so bad
you'd do anything

to make them understand
have you ever had someone steal your heart away
you'd give anything up

to make them feel the same
have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
but you don't know what to say
and you don't know where to start

have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry

have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night
have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
have you ever, have you ever

have you ever found the one

you've dreamed of all your life
do just about anything

to look into their eyes
have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
only to find that one

won't give their heart to you
have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there
and all you can do is wait

for that day when they will care

have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry

have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night
have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
have you ever, have you ever

what do i gotta do to get you in my arms baby

what do i gotta say to get to your heart
to make you understand

how i need you next to me
gotta get you in my world
coz baby i can't sleep

(repeat 2x)

have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night
have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right

have you ever, have you ever ever ever

have u ever...

August

exhausted...

damn... im so tired, my whole body is aching. im always out of the office... woke up so early, you can see me at the authority's office so early in the morning almost everyday now. i think most the officers there have known me... some even know my name, call me and chat but i have no clue who they are... LOL!!

i've been so often to that KL Sentral since the past 4 months even the cashier at the taxi booth recognize me, the girl who work at the ERL counter knows me, the owner of pastry shop at Putrajaya Sentral begin to say hello every time he saw me and even the cleaner always clean the floor inside ERL smile and say hi everytime she saw me... LOL!!

well, to be honest, im exhausted... i know my boss want to make me a familiar face at the authority's office and she always want me to go there because most of the officers know me and they never rejected my applications... no matter what, im seriously tired, i need a vacation and i really need sometime away from work ASAP before i fall on my knees and sleep on the floor... LOL!!

im planning to take a long holiday in April or July... i will either go to Bangkok, Chiang Mai or Jakarta in April or go to the Rainforest World Music Festival in Borneo... im planning now, hope i could go to one of it, but im more keen to go to music festival... i hope so, i really hope so...

August

hints and clues...

i enjoy being me all the time... always have a smile on my face, listening to the songs i have on the computer, read some books, walk around the office and chat with some of the closest colleagues... yea, i enjoy doing that, besides i cant sit still for more that 20 minutes and the room is too cold at times...

back to being me... i smile when i see fit, but most of the time, i will smile... even my boss said, im the happiest person he ever met. i dont see why i should be stiff or dull... but some people expect me to give more than just a smile... they expect me to know what they think, what they have in mind, what they want... well, how about this? im no magician, i cant read minds and i dont have any magic ball to help me see what will happen next...

forget all the hints... all the body language. i cant figure that out either... im totally sucks at mind games. if someone keep on giving me clues, hints or whatever the heck it calls, just stop praying that i will find out what they mean, because it'll never happen... weird enough, im pretty good with all the riddles and clues in treasure hunt. how i wish people around me could just stop playing this hide and seek things because mind games is something i really cant relate to...

here are some hints that you might get from me and their meaning...

• if i smile at you, it will either be, i respect you OR i like you OR i really really like you... 
• if i look at you, it might be because i have no other view to look at OR i just happen to look your way OR again, i really really like you... 
• if i keep on looking at you, maybe because you look weird OR god damn it, im so interested on you... 
• if i dont even bother to look at you, simply mean, im angry at you OR im scared of you OR i just hate you...
• if i hit you in a friendly way, it is because im used to do it OR ahhhh, cant sleep last night, should i repeat? i really really like you...
• if i hit you very hard, hey dude!! you're in trouble...
• if i walk and having a good chat with you, it is because i like you as my friend OR cant you see? im waiting for you to ask me out!! duuhhh... 
• if i walk with sour face and dont talk to you, well, im just not in a good mood...
• if i always bump into you, because i dont have eyes like cctv OR im doing it on purpose so that you notice me... 
• if i help you so eagerly, simply because im good at what im doing OR its my nature that i love helping people OR what else? i like you so much and wanted to lessen you burden... 
• if i offer you a ride, it really means i want to help OR im expecting you to invite me for coffee that you prepare yourself in your kitchen at home... finally...
• if i let you drive my car, it really means i trust you a lot OR you are my good friend OR whatever mine are yours and hopefully whatever yours are mine... lets get married!! LOL!!

well, these are some hints from me... they really describe me and what i normally do and i think they are pretty comman. im a simple, a little shy girl, so my hints will be as simple as me... LOL!!

August

admiring THAT person...

im blushing... yea, i am... i think im admiring someone. well, im not pretty sure what is this feeling im having right now, but i found myself smiling and grinning whenever i think of this person... i dont dare to look at this person eyes directly and i feel like hiding under my desk when this person turn to my direction whenever i peep to look while pretending to be busy... who is he? hmmm, do u think i will tell? maybe i will, maybe not... keep on guessing, wish u all the best... LOL!!

yea, i think im admiring this person... yea, im becoming an admirer now, secretly admiring... i wish to talk to this person, but im scared, worried of getting no reply, rejection... well, im just admiring, the other party doesnt have to know... yeah, that person doesnt have to know, even though i really hope for something better... LOL!! no, no way... that person must have someone special in life. im keeping this as a secret, yup yup, a secret that only me know and it will remain that way forever...

August

back to work..

today is the first day for most people around the world to get back to work on this brand new year... normal mistake we normally do? instead of writing the date as 03/01/2011 we simply write it down as 03/01/2010... yeah, kinda hard since we're used of writing it as 2010 for more than 300days...

well, even though i've forwarded all my new year's wish before i left the office last Friday, im still getting more and more new year's wishes from people in the office, makcik who sells my favorite fried noodles in the food court downstairs, people at the parking space where i park my car, emails from my overseas friends, even the cashier at 7-Eleven wished me happy new year this morning when i stopped by to get the chocolate milk on my way to work...

i really hope this year will be great for me...another year, another chapter will be invented in life, i want mine to be as simple as possible yet colorful and interesting... well, i hope things will be wonderful, amazing and smooth this year, i really hope so...

anyway, i better finish my breakfast now... its a first day at work in 2011, i better make it good... where's my coffee?

August