emotions...

recently, my feeling is a mixture of everything... sometimes i feel so melancholic, sometimes i feel so free, mix with funny feeling inside, smile when i was thinking about all the happy thoughts, sad with a lil bit of anger...

i used to be a person that full of hates and anger... scolded my siblings, fight with friends, neighbors and everybody... when i grow older, im no longer an angry person, i mellow down and much more relax and calm... one thing that never change, im still selective in friendship, relationship... i never let anyone to easily enter my life, i pick and choose very carefully. i dont make friend to people who are too depending on others i dont make friends to blond with no brain, i dont make friend to people who are bossy and i dont make friend to people that is too lazy, sleeping all day and do nothing...

u will find me not smiling at all to any new staff who join the company, to a new classmate that sit just right next beside me or to my parent's friends who come to my house. if they dont start talking to me, just dont expect me to start the conversation because its not gonna happen...

being picky sometimes does give me an advantage. i dont get to join them gossiping, talking bad about others, involve in the stupid multi level business or wasting my time listening to their pointless talk which normally full of craps, especially from the girls... so sickening...

anyway, my emotions is a bit out of the track recently. glad weekend is just around the corner i need to take some rest, sleep and relax. i'll get better by Monday. sleeping is like a therapy, i will sleep whenever i feel so stress up, tired or depress... when i wake up the next day, everything will be fine. yeah, i will be fine, i know i will... what a relief...

August